Icannot sleep. My head is once again my enemy. My right eye is blurry and droopy and watery, and I keep getting one attack after another. Not sleeping only makes it worse, but I can’t get comfortable enough to fall asleep. Whats worse is that I get a lot of cold sores. These cold sores –AKA Herpes Simplex — make me sick too. Herpes Simplex resides deap within the nervous system, and when it decides to be active, it affects me in many different ways. Depending on which side of my face the cold sore is growing, that side will be tender to the touch. My nerves become overly sensitive on that side of my face and head. Even my hair brushing against my cheek is painful. So, right now, I am getting cold sores on the right corner of my mouth, and coincidentaly, that is the same side that my CPH is active on. So not only is my head hurting because of the CPH, but the CPH is magnified by my over active nervous system because of cold sores. FRUSTRATING!!! I am irritated, because I want to sleep, but my body wont let me.
This will pass. It always does. I just thought that if I write about it while it is fresh, then, maybe I might be able to help somebody else who is going through the same thing. Somwhere out there, there is somebody else going through the exact same thing as me. I am not alone. I am very thankful that this is all that I have to endure. These burdens will pass from me, but some people are fighting a losing battle with cancer. How scared they must be…and yet how brave. I admire your bravery whomever you may be. I pray you find peace in the night when you lie awake scare of all you are facing. I pray that my Lord above will bring you comfort, and fill all of your days with joy.